So once again my Husband has been invitied to "our" friends house, but not me. These people were supposedly both our friends, but things don't seem to be that way anymore. I guess it is partly my fault. I returned to school in June, as most of you know. When I announced that this is what I was doing it was recieved with less than enthusiasm by K. (the female in the couple). Becuase of this and continuting drama from people in her past, I chose to limit my time communicating with her (she and these people wanted to involve me in their drama). Then when my mom's Alzheimer's meds stopped working, I had to make a choice, so I chose to help my family. This pretty much cut all communication with K. and V, her huband. It wasn't done to slight them in any way, I just had way to much on my plate to deal with and had to make a choice about what is important to me. I chose my family and my education. Even now seeing what is happeneing, I wouldn't have made a different choice.
K. can be very negative about anything that doesn't directly affect her or her life, but she is even negative about most of her life. I had to get away from that. My Husband doesn't seem to understand this, and I don't know how to explain it. When I asked him if I had done something to make myself not welcome anymore, he said he didn't know and that I needed to talk to Karen. My Husband did say that A. K's daughter is still mad at me. What she is mad at me about is so stupid. She wanted me to teach her how to sew. No big deal, I agreed. Well that was before the gas prices shot up and my husband was out of work for three weeks. We live almost 30 minutes away from them and it takes almost a quarter tank of gas round trip. I tried to explain this to her, but she didn't want to listen, so now I am wondering if my exclusion is due to A's anger at me. IF it is then that is just way to petty for me.
The more I write, the more I wonder what is the point. I have felt for a while that now that I have no usefulness to K , I am no longer needed or wanted. This sucks because for some reason my husband has become really close to both of them and can't see the forest for the trees. It all just makes me so tired. Before he left to go up there, I even thought what is the use in me going to school if it is going to tear my life apart like this. But then I wanted to kick myself for even thinking that. All my other friends fully support what I am doing. I guess I am just lonely and I don't feel that anyone (read my Husband here), really understands what I am trying to do.
I don't know, I am just not happy right now. I guess my real problem is being excluded and having my husband seem to be more interested in K's drama than in me and our life. But I guess who can blame him, our life sucks right now. We really need a second income, but because we only have one vehicle and he works ten hours a day, it makes it hard for me to look for work. even if I find a job, how am I going to get there and home? he doesn't see this all he sees is that I am still sitting at the house and not contributing. Yes this is a very sore point for me.
Well, I feel a little better after having ranted about this. Not much but it is a start.
Hurricane Gustav behaved himself and went in where the weather people predicted. He was even kind enough to lose strength before fully entering the great state of Lousiana. New Orleans is hopefully optimistic about how things are going. We here on the TX/LA state line are breathing a collective sigh of relief that we did not receive a direct hit. We are still being forcast for some winds and rain, but we can handle that. The area is like a ghost town about 80% of the population heeded the evacutaion warning and ran for higher ground. We (my husband and myself) chose to stay here, more for finanical and pet reasons than any since of bravery (or what some would call stupidity). I am stil hoping that everything will continue the way it is and that we won't lose power, so far so good.
I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. It helped me knowing that everyone here was concerned about our well being. This is what I love about being a Pagan. The sense of community is awesome.
On another Note: I recieved my final grade for my second class. It is an A-, but hey it is still an A. Thanks for all your support.
As Hurricane Gustav enters the Gulf of Mexico, we here in Southeast Texas are being issued a mandatory evacuation notice starting 6 am tomorrow morning, this means they highly suggest that you leave, but if you don't they tell you not to expect any rescue services until after the storm has passed. My husband and I have decided to wait as long as possible before leaving, we have numerous pets and don't wish to leave them behind, but we may have to leave the cats. (the very thought of having to leave them is making me frantic). They are saying to be prepared to be gone at least 5 days, but since my Husband works within the refinerys, he has a Badge that will allow him to come back in sooner (hopefully). I am hoping that we won't have to leave at all, but only time will tell. If we don't leave we are very capable of surviving without electricity and even water (we camp ALOT and recreate the medieval times so we are pretty much prepared for anything. Large Water containers, ice chests, barbeque pit, do you need anything else) Asking for positive and protective energies for me and my family. I will post as soon as all this is over.
Thanks for all the great responses. I didn't realize this site was hosted along with the other ones. I wonder how you can see all the profiles for all the different sites? Just a curiosity question about the programming aspect of keeping something like that straight. It is ok really, I do have my friends set so that I have to approve the add, and I have been blocking the ones from the other site. It only happens every once in a while, it just hadn't happened in so long and I didn't ask about the other ones, so I figured I would ask this time. Thanks for all the information. I really love this site and I am so not going anywhere.
This is like the second time I have gotten a friend request from the JAMIN 94.5 site on this profile. I didn't cross link it to another site. Is this one site automatically cross linked with this other site. If it is, are there any ways to block your profile from cross linking. These people, guys actually are creepy and I really don't want to deal with it. Does anyone know anything about this?
